Have you ever wondered how you can want God with all your heart and yet do things that go in the opposite direction – things you are not proud of – things that in your right mind you would never do?
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde is the story of a person with two distinct personalities – one good and the other evil. Both sides had completely opposite levels of morality.
Like Dr. Jekyll we can do the right thing, but then Mr. Hyde takes over and we do the wrong thing.
We all have this civil war going on inside us between two opposite parts of ourselves. One is light, and the other darkness. One is what you were, the other what God wants you to become. Dr. Mulholland called that struggle inside you “The body of death”, which is the one Paul mentioned about wanting to be delivered from. “Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?” Romans 7:24
Martin Luther King Jr. said, “Each of us is something of a schizophrenic personality, tragically divided against ourselves” (Strength to Love, 1963). I think that we can all admit to this daily struggle which is like two gladiators battling inside your heart vying for supremacy.
As Mulholland further states, “The body of death has something to do with the doing evil when we desire to do good, even when we delight in God’s law in our inmost being”.
I say this because it is a fact that before Christ, we developed a complex network through our habits, attitudes, choices, and experiences. That Old Network came into conflict with God’s New Network. Our region is a few weeks away from having a 4G wireless network. Soon all the new cell phones coming out will start boasting 4G capability as a sales hook. 3G will be viewed as slow and obsolete.
When God’s new network came online, the old network was rendered obsolete. The old ways of thinking and relating are no longer compatible with the “new and living way” God has for you. It sounds so wonderful, but there is a basic problem. Just like the older 3G phones, we grew to like the old technology. We have an investment in it. We tattooed our identity on it with our pink sparkly cases and favorite songs we use for a ringer, only to find out that now must change. I know people who have had the same cell phone for 10 years. They love the old network. They love the old phone. “Why should I change?” they say.
The dilemma: God saves your soul and spirit, but the old network we have grown to love is still there – The old way of thinking, speaking, reacting, and seeing things.
T. D. Jakes speaks of times where an old movie of his past life (out of nowhere) began playing in his mind. This is because the old network is still there and sometimes we use it. Here is further proof of the old network:
But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire.
James 1:14 ESV
Two Networks – One Choice.
The old network is dead. If you continue to allow the deadness of the old network to shape your behavior, it will destroy your faith.
For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live.
Romans 8:14 ESV
If you continue to allow God’s new network to shape your behavior, it will build your faith and bring you to God’s goal for your life.
“But if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live.”
Romans 8:14 ESV
Your old network can no longer accommodate where God wants to bring you. This leaves you only one option . .You must change networks. We will discuss that part next time.